Very often my past, specifically my teen years, comes back to remind me who I
really am was. Depressed, poor and barely holding on, I struggled to breath most days. I am not depressed anymore, in fact quite the opposite, I have more joy in my life than I ever thought possible. But every once in a while an emotion will creep in so strongly and take me back so quickly, it takes everything I have to keep from sinking. It’s momentary but it’s overwhelming. And typically it’s because I feel like I’m losing something that I love dearly, and I don’t want to let go.
I am aware that the root of this goes back to my Dad leaving us when I was a teen and suffering that life threatening loss.. yes it was life threatening to me. I know this. But knowing does not have the power in that particular moment to change how I feel.
I’ve developed a new strategy. I make myself say out loud what I’m thankful for and everything that I am blessed with.. sometimes all we need is a change of focus to correct negative patterns..
I go back to my old standby
Open a window.. breath in the crisp, clean air.
Dance barefoot in your kitchen to a song that only you hear.
Focus on all that you have, not on what you feel is slipping through your fingers.
Whisper blessings in infant ears, stop time, hold a child and don’t let go.
Step out on rocky ground.
Unfurl the flag of your heart, let it fly
Inhale the sweetness of peace, flowing into shadows.. filling them. Removing them.
Speak into existence- dreams that have never been spoken aloud.
Pick up courage, carry it with you
Let go of the pain, stop carrying it with you.
I feel better already. :-)
So do I. I loved that poem. Beautiful. I can relate to all of it. Sometimes, when my babies are sleeping, I whisper in their ears over and over….I love you. I love you. I love you. :)
Thanks for your comment! The entire ‘poem’ came from that one line about children. I’m sure your babies feel your love for them from head to toe. :-)
Beautiful! I am helping someone I love dearly struggle to emerge from a deep depression. My prayer is that they feel the joy & peace you express in your poem.
Thank you, Jenny.. that would be my prayer also. Much love to your friend. <3